That I have conflicted feelings is an understatement. I'm close to exploding from this schism within, tearing me in different directions. I can't make up my mind whether I'm more sad to be leaving or happy to come home. Since leaving is coming first, that is still more prominent in my mind. As of right now, there is nothing I am missing so much from home that it overshadows what I will miss from here. What I already miss. Funny how you start missing something before it's gone - like you're trying to distance yourself from a good thing because you know you can't keep enjoying it for long.
Rationally, I know that my life is in Norway. That I will be happier there, long-term. There are many things about Tokyo or even Japan that I don't like, and many things I would miss from Norway should I attempt to stay here longer. But still. As I tried to write a "good and bad" list, weighing benefits about returning home against the disadvantages of leaving, I found it got equally confusing and irrational. Things that should be "good", are also "bad", and half the time I'm not sure what category they belong in.
As you can see, Tokyo is currently winning. And if you think I'm cheating by writing "people" four times, in addition to "friends", "people I've met" and "people I've yet to meet", let me remind you that Tokyo has about 30 million people, while Oslo has 500 thousand... (And my hometown even less. It *will* be an anti-climax to return there)
Fortunately, some of the people I've met in Tokyo are also leaving - either for Oslo or in the case of my Danish, Swedish and Finnish friends, countries that are considerably closer to Norway than Japan. Hopefully this means that I can stay in touch with them. And of course - as one of those who is leaving pointed out - we live in a TGIF world. No, not "Thank God, It's Friday", but "Twitter, Google, iPhone and Facebook". It's possible to stay in touch despite distances.
And still. I'm sentimental. Despite stayingintouchability, it will never be the same. I've had an absolutely excellent time here. There have been ups and downs, of course - some of the downs more obvious than others - but all in all I am very happy I came to Japan, and equally happy that I went back after my involuntary "vacation" in Norway this spring. Some of the best things about my stay only happened after I cam back.
I have two weeks. It is my firm resolution to make the absolute most of them. Knowing Tokyo, I have every reason to expect it will be amazing.