Thursday, April 28, 2011

On X

And just like that, Jack was her ex. 

















Okay, so this is a sorry-ass eXcuse for a post. Xorry. The thing is I'm not used to the letter X. Look it up in the Norwegian dictionary. You might miss it. It will probably have two entries - xylophone and then one I can't remember. Maybe xenophobia

Also, I'm not in a bloggy mood. Usually, towards the end of month-long challenges I feel good about myself for having completed them. This time, I'm not so sure. I have not been very good with the community aspect of it all. I don't know how many blogs I've visited (old and new), but it sure hasn't been anywhere near the amount one probably should try to visit when participating in a challenge with 1200+ participants. 

So what. I said at the beginning that I was doing it for persistence, not community. I haven't expected to gain hugely in followers or following, and I haven't. I appreciate the new blogs I've found as a result of the A-Z, but I don't feel terribly bad about those I didn't get a chance to visit. The problem, however, is that my initial goal also failed. Yes, I have put up a post (of sorts) every day (except Sundays) since the start of April. I managed to finish the challenge. But it hasn't inspired me to continue in the same fashion. 

Frankly, I am wondering if I am stretching my ability and interest with my attempts of blogging daily. I am actually growing weary of my own style. I am a little tired of listening to my own voice. If this was a blog I was visiting, I'd take a break from it right about now. 

There might be a break starting where April and A-Z ends. The reasons for this are not those described above, but rather my upcoming return to Tokyo. Yes. I'm going back. I guess writing it here makes it official (though Facebook already knows). I have set my mind to make it a good remainder of my stay. The earthquakes might interfere with how much I enjoy it, but I am determined to try to ignore that. I am queasy about going back, but also relieved to have made the decision. 

Maybe being tired of myself and my own voice will change when I return to a place and a life which will give me something to write about? I assume so. Thus this is a notification of a possible short break. After Y and Z, don't expect to see me for maybe a week. Then I'll be craving to tell you ALL about my veryvery exciting (and possibly earthquakey) life back in Tokyo... 

X marks the spot... 



(And no, I haven't broken up with my boyfriend, Jack. I don't even have a boyfriend named Jack. I merely unplugged the headphones from my computer and saw a story in there, somewhere...)

12 comments:

welcome to my world of poetry said...

Very oringinal and I love the read.

Have a good day.
Yvonne.

Jan Morrison said...

yep, gotcha. I'm in a slightly different mood about it. I liked the notion of posting every day and I liked blogging ahead and having it all tickety-boo and ready BUT like you, I feel I haven't got the community part down. I know I SHOULD acquire more followers if I'm to put my blog forward as a platform for my work but I don't really believe it. The thing that has worked for me is that I've met some folks that I will continue to connect to but I can't have 300 close friends virtually any more than I can have them on this earthly plain. My friends are friends because I tend them and they tend me. We're all gardeners and garden both and I'm not an industrial farmer. I just have a small organic plot where I grow really good nutritious friends - like you!
I'm nervous about you going back to Japan and I understand your desire to finish something you started. I'll be sending you good good vibrations as you wend your way east...

sue said...

I'll be thinking of you and your family as you transfer back. I'm pleased for you to be returning, to pick up the shattered pieces, to continue, and to start over again. I hope your shoes are broken in really well so you can get around and walk and take photos and heal (no puns intended) (Why am I sniffling?)

Hart Johnson said...

*hugs* You sound tires, Mari--I think planning a break is probably a very good idea... get to Tokyo, settle back in... and you will start to feel like you again...

Nate Wilson said...

So, what you're saying is you don't know Jack. (Sorry, but sometimes I can't help myself... and in my defense, you started it.)

Even if you haven't reached your pre-challenge goal, I still think it's best to look at the A to Z in a positive light: for the people you have met, and the posts you are proud of. And I wish you the best of luck with your move back to Tokyo.

Kelly said...

Well, I've certainly enjoyed your (near) daily posting. Glad to hear you're going back to Japan and look forward to updates once you get there!

If you get a chance, drop by my blog and see my cockroach. He wants to meet Sluggy!!

Cold As Heaven said...

I'm trying to find X every day, in my math problems. Sometimes I'm looking for Y too ... but that's for tomorrow, I guess >:)

Cold As Heaven

Marjorie said...

Whatever you have decided is what I'm sure is best for you. i really think you will enjoy your stay this time around.

Cold As Heaven said...

... and great that you're going back to Japan. Good luck >:)

Cold As Heaven

Clarissa Draper said...

You found a story there because you're a writer. I haven't been even close to visiting all the blogs that signed up.

Holly Ruggiero said...

Just visit like 800 between today, tomorrow, and Sunday and you'll be caught up (maybe insane but caught up). :)

Madeleine said...

LOL! I love your sense of humour! :O)

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